discovering alex.

summer.  everyday spent with a guy i loved more than life.  sneaking into movies at the cinema, lying out on my porch talking about our future.  we would go for a ride in your car with the top down, and share with the world how much we loved one another.  i went to all your swim meets. i supported you.  you were my everything, all i thought about.  i always think about our secret camp out in your backyard where we did nothing but eat those disgusting low-fat gummy bears.  and we talked and laughed and snuggled and embraced.  remember how you threw me a surprise birthday party, and got everyone to charge at me with water balloons?  don't you remember how you would send me texts at random hours of the night that said "i'm so lucky to have you."  don't you remember?  don't you remember our love? the fact that you seem to have forgotten about everything we had kills me inside.

i miss you a lot eli.